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Self Portraits.

As you have probably noticed now, I'm very good at starting projects or ideas and then abandoning them.
101 list comes to mind.. so does keeping track of what books I've read and my thoughts on them, as well as countless others.

This will probably be anothe- No, positive thinking, right?
I spend a lot of time browsing Flickr. It's one of my favorite sites, there's just so much beauty in it.
A lot of people who I keep tabs on have been undertaking a "365 Project" in which they will take a photograph for every day, for a year (365 days, in the end 365 photos)
some go with themes, some don't.

I'm not going to even pretend that I have the discipline to maintain a strict daily posting like I've seen some people do.
But still I'm attracted to things like this.
Soooo, in the great Aussie spirit, I'll give it a go.

I find myself very sensitive to my surroundings, I love beauty and I love discovering beauty in my environment.
I have a hard time, though, seeing the beauty in myself.
I try very hard to be a good person, and I believe that I am one. Every now and again someone will, out of the blue, be Very Kind To Me. But every time it catches me off guard, and I end up feeling a bit horrible because I'm not really sure why I deserve it. Mostly because my world is tinged in blue and gray from The Depression. Indeed, very often I do not like the person staring back at me in the mirror.
SO! 365 Portraits of myself.
Now, I'm going to be flexible, they don't HAVE to be taken one a day, but by the time I'm done I will have three hundred and sixty five photographs of myself. This is mostly to combat the eeyore in my head: "ah, why bother, you're just going to fail anyways. See? Look you're already so many days behind, you might as well just give up."
TAKE THAT PESSIMISTIC VOICE! I can outsmart you.

I'm going to need your help though. See, I DO seem to have this problem with answering to myself. "eeyore" tends to get the better of me if I'm left to my own devices. Do you think you could help keep me motivated? If I stop posting for a while, give me a poke and ask me what's up.. It will help get me out of a rut if I happen to have fallen in one again. It's hard to fall behind when you have a cheering squad on you're side.
Or hell, if this is something that interests you as well why not play along too in your own journal?


365.1
001.
Taken on July 13th, 2009.
In the front yard of the Emerald Beach House, my current home.

365.2
002.
Taken July 14, 2009.
In the greenhouse at the Coffs Harbour Botanical Garden. This was my first time in the greenhouse, as I suppose all previous times I've visited the gardens (which is OFTEN!), it's always been on the weekend and the greenhouse is only open to the public during the weekday (due to theft, people can be so mean).

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kanawinkie
Jul. 15th, 2009 04:07 am (UTC)
That's fantastic! I'll be so thrilled to play along with you in this game of ours. I can't wait to see what clever things you come up with.
*Shakes her pompoms as well*

As usual, you express things most beautifully and I'm touched. That's certainly a good step in the right direction of the kind of person I'd like to be.
You in yourself are such an inspiration to me as well. *hugs so tight*
yammermoon
Jul. 14th, 2009 12:15 pm (UTC)
Just think of it this way experimentally. If you take a picture every day of yourself, you will know exactly what day your hair changes from "it looks good" length to "looks ok" length and finally to "omg am I a hippie?" length when you are done. :)

no really, I enjoy your photos, they are very well done and excellent snaps of beauty that is often overlooked. Keep up the good work and if I don't see something from you every 3 days I'm gonna poke you!



kanawinkie
Jul. 15th, 2009 04:01 am (UTC)
Haha, I'd be in trouble then because I'm already pretty much a hippie! I'm duly torn between letting it all grow out again and shaving it all off!

Thank you! I'm glad you like my photos, it makes sharing them a joy! And thank you even more for the promise of poking, I can promise you sometime in the future I'll need it. Doh!
sirfox
Jul. 14th, 2009 02:06 pm (UTC)
you have an Eeyore, too? Mom always told me that Eeyore was the character who i most resembled. I can see it, especially as a young kid. I never got excited about anything such that they'd notice.
kanawinkie
Jul. 15th, 2009 04:03 am (UTC)
Yeah, I only spontaneously called it "Eeyore" in the post just because it was a quick, simple explanation. But it does really fit.
I've been doing a lot of thinking and have a few personal revelations, which I intend to write up about... eventually ;)
I'll be interested to see if any of it speaks to you as well, if you don't mind.
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